Getting Stronger at 16: I MISS YOU ALREADY

It hasn't been easy in fact it's a bit scary having a LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP.   I suffered one month of depression and loneliness (that is why I don't have a post about our 15 MONTHSARY).  And what makes it worse is our communication is not that good as compared in the past.   I know I had to be strong in my stand that my partner has his obligations and duty to his works  but you cannot blame me if I think so negatively.

DOUBT?  Yes, I am doubtful now.  I do trust him but I guess you can say that it's also my biggest regret for not conquering these demons inside my mind. A bit fearful with this relationship but today really isn't the right time to end a wonderful relation that starts with a beautiful friendship.

To start I have to STOP my negative thoughts and look back what we have from the past.  After the one month space we have(no communication), I finally realize that I LOVE HIM SO DEARLY and I MISS HIM ALREADY.

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We should STOP our childish attitudes and start again with a NEW STORY in our LIFE.  For the first time the emptiness inside me was GONE.  Knowing that he LOVES ME MORE and he UNDERSTAND my LONGING.  I cannot imagine trying to cope up with my LIFE alone again.

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I can hardly say that I have a NEW LIFE with him.  And with GOD, He gives us an assurance that HE IS IN CONTROL and HE give us a NEW BEGINNING to start all over again.    

A wonderful beginning of a VAPING RELATIONSHIP.  Happy 16th MONTHSARY PALABZ.

Clouds Above Us: It's our 14th today!!!

Clouds Above Us: It's our 14th today!!!: Photo credit to Cake Central If this is not LOVE then explain to me this feeling I have right now.  I don't know what LOVE TRULY is....

It's our 14th today!!!

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If this is not LOVE then explain to me this feeling I have right now.  I don't know what LOVE TRULY is.  All I know is that I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and I WON'T LET YOU GO.

You're PERFECT for me.  I hope you will be the ONE for me FOREVER.  

We have gone so far and we NEED each other everyday.  I HOPE you're HAPPY with ME as I am with YOU.

HAPPY 14th MONTHSARY PALABZ!  I LOVE YOU.

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Clouds Above Us: It's our 13th Today

Clouds Above Us: It's our 13th Today: For almost 3 days I don't have communication with my partner. Thank God he texted me  yesterday morning saying his okey and nothing to wo...

It's our 13th Today

For almost 3 days I don't have communication with my partner.

Thank God he texted me  yesterday morning saying his okey and nothing to worry.  Problem with his connection he said.

It really bothers me when someone you love suddenly gone for a day without a reason.  Mixed emotions transpired, afraid if something bad happened. 

Many questions arise; one of this is, WHY DID HE SUDDENLY STOP TEXTING/CALLING ME?  I am not a mind reader that I can easily guess what other person think.  I know texting and calling constantly is a pain in the ass.  Guys don't like this, they avoid habitual texting and calling back and forth, I know that.  I am not selfish but I want to know that he is still there for me.  A kind of affection that I wanted in a man.  I want him always on my side.

    
Celebrating our 13th Monthsary without him is really sad.  But I am happy that he called.  

Maybe I am just over reacting having that kind of thinking.  It might that I have to let go of that weird feelings.  

The reality is that any area of our SOCIAL LIFE happened to have that GUILT and FEAR.  But I have to look like that I am letting him do whatever he wants.  Maybe I am just a bit so strict and afraid.  Afraid of being alone again.

I have to be nonreactive of all the things going on now.  So that I can easily see the clarity of the situation.  No more doubts and I will make my self-fulfilling prophecy.  It may seem a little delusional but it is just an assumption to make how other person feels about.  

And finally one of the best thing I can do even if he is not here for now, I will make sure that I have a full and enjoyable fun life.  

Happy 13th monthsary palabz.  Love you.  

   

Clouds Above Us: DEACTIVATED LOVE

Clouds Above Us: DEACTIVATED LOVE: Love that has to stop...   I didn't really have the time, but I stopped for a while: Sometimes, you just need to stop for a while and ...

DEACTIVATED LOVE

Love that has to stop...  

I didn't really have the time, but I stopped for a while:

Sometimes, you just need to stop for a while and look around at all the beautiful things in your life.

But I will never STOP loving you, just deactivated for the meantime.